This is just something I wrote while in high school, right after the 9-11 tragedy.


"Our Last Goodbye"
You left for work, I didnt even get up.
The night before had been our biggest fight.
Today as I am watching the news I can't believe my eyes.
I should have known that this would be our last goodbye.

Sometimes throughout the day I thought about ways
I could have made things better when you were here.
I should have known that this would be our last goodbye.

I wish I could go back in time.
Oh please, oh please let me have the chance to say our last goodbye.

After that day, my life has changed.
I coulnd't find the courage to be strong again.
I love you and I need you.

Sometimes I cry so much at night that I drift into memories
And times we had toghether when you were here.

I should have known that this would be our last goodbye.
I wish that I could go back in time.
Oh please, oh please let me have the chance to say our last goodbye.
Yes, I should have known that this would be our last goodbye!
*This is dedicated to all those who were personally affected by the events of September 11, 2001.
I will always remember 9/11.

So I really love this analogy of girls. Those of us who are as they call it "hard to get". We know how to wait for the right guy to come along. I'm so glad I did. :-)




Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Some boys dont want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground, that arent as good but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality they're amazing, they just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree!

The Weather in Me

One of my many poems. Enjoy. :-)

The Weather in Me

Yesterday I was Sunny with Bright Blue Skies
Yesterday was when you told me I'll love you 'till I die


Today I am thundering with lightning in the sky
Today is when I find out everything was a lie

Tomorrow I will be a destructive tornado
Until I realize I don't need you in my life

Someday I will be weathered enough
To know that I'm ok as long as I'm Alive!

Two strangers

I love writing poems...this one was actually after waking up from a dream.

One look. One smile.
Thats all it takes to know....
We are strangers who have known each other forever.
Two strangers in the same room...unable to move, unable to speak.
But yet, inside us something knows...we have known each other from long before...
I can see it in your eyes even from afar...you are waiting for the right time.
The room is growing dark...but the light around us doesnt dim...you start to come...but something happens.
Another day we havent met.
Two Strangers once again!

Puzzled Life

Another one of my poems. :-)


Puzzled Life

One Piece at a time
I collect them one by one
Until I find the place and time
I shall not receive another one

The picture is big and blurry to say the least
Unnecessary pieces getting in the way
I shall look all around up and down, even to the east
And until I find the right piece, but it wont be right away

So many pieces, not much time
Thought I would figure it out by twenty-one
I feel like I'm regressing back in time
All I can do is solve them one by one.

The Proposal

The proposal happened in Michigan. Auston's home. We went for two weeks, for me to meet his family, which kind of tells you we were serious. So, I'm going to kind of back up a bit and let you know that I knew the proposal was coming....he had been giving me hints almost everyday we saw each other. But I didn't let him know I was catching them. I acted like I had no idea what he was meaning. lol.
Anyways, so we are in Michigan, and we decided to go the Warren dunes which is the sand dunes they have over there...I mean they are extremely tall, and its so hard to get up there. So, we both were climbing up the one they call Tower Hill which is the tallest. It was so hard so he carried me part of the way (he says it was most of the way, like more than half, but i know better so we will stick to my side of the story.) lol We finally reached the top and the view was absolutely beautiful! As I was looking down I realized how beautiful the earth is, I mean we saw the water so lovely, and across in the distance we could see Chicago...faintly...but it was there.
As we were both just looking out, he turned to me and said "I want to get married with you, i love you". I was surprised, and then I asked "wait...are you proposing officially?" he said "Yes", he got on one knee and continued, "Will you marry me?" I said, "YES!!!" I started jumping up and down, and laughing hysterically! I always imagined myself crying when I get proposed to, but it didnt happen that way. I couldnt stop laughing....I was just soooo full of joy! I was ecstatic just thinking of becoming his wife! After all that and a couple of hugs and kisses ;-) we decided to tell my parents (who were also joyful of the situation) and then his parents.
He didn't have a ring with him, since he told me he wasnt planning on proposing on the trip. He just felt it was the right moment. It was so beautiful. And...the next day, we went to get my ring....im so glad I chose my ring! I love it! Getting proposed to is one of the best feelings in the world! It may have not happened the way I always dreamed, but thats what makes it special and oh so much better!!

How we met

So, finally I will write how Auston and I met....and by that I mean actually started talking. The first time I saw him, he had just come into our Young Single Adult branch. He was introducing himself, stating that he was in the Navy and was going to stay for about 2 years. I thought to myself: "he's cute". But, I left it at that....knowing that most of my life, cute guys like him have never really liked me. So I made up my mind that I was just to treat him like any other guy. Which is basically saying, not gonna talk to him. So, needless to say, I kinda kept my distance. Anyways, the day we really talked pretty much at all, and well, not for long was on an activity going to play some "russian baseball" i think it was. I didn't want to drive by myself, not too confident in driving, especially in areas I'm don't know very well.

So, I asked the President of the branch if he could possibly give me a ride there, other people had already enough people in their cars....well except for Auston, who was all by himself. Anyways, so President takes it upon himself to ask Auston if he would be willing to give me a ride instead. To the which he replied "sure, of course". Darn! I thought, (by the way, im extremely shy, one of the reasons I stayed away from guys), I had to ride with the cuuute stranger! Im terrible at making small talk, I remember him trying to talk to me, and would ask me questions, to the which I gave him a simple answer and then turned my head away to look out the window. I think he probably started to get annoyed of this, and a little part of me was sad because I really thought he was cute, but I was partly glad, because I was not comfortable talking at all. So eventually we got to the park, and we kept our distance from each other, not really talking at all. Then it was time for the ride back to the church, and well the scenario repeated itself.

Since then, we kind of only said "hi" and "bye" to each other, He kept asking me to hang out more, like to go out. But I kept declining, yes, because I was too scared to get out of my comfort zone. Slowly I started feeling more comfortable around him. Then I find out something that I didn't like about him.......

He is younger than me!!! I was soooo sad, because I had told myself I would never date anyone younger than me.

However, as the time went by, I started liking him more, especially at the YSA conference we had shortly thereafter. I felt so comfortable, I started hanging around him the whole night. We dance pretty much every dance together, and (well he previously said he wanted to hang out, but i kept telling him no, that i was too busy). So at the dance he finally said, "so when are we going to watch this movie that we want to see?" and i responded "oh i dont know....someday"

Well that day happened sooner than I imagined, i believe it was either the day after or the day after that i called him up to see if he was up to the movie. So there you have it, we went out to the movies and from there our love blossomed.

He is the most amazing man ever. I love him so much. Seriously, I could have not asked for a better husband then him. :-)

So later this week I will write about how he proposed to me......