It has been a long time since I have kept up with my blog. Something I guess I should do more often. Alot of things have happened lately.
First, Auston is on a deployment with the Navy. He has been gone for 3 months now and I miss him incredibly. I never knew that being a Navy wife would be so difficult. I get to hear from him once a day by email, and if I am lucky I get to chat with him thru facebook for about 5-10 minutes. So, I guess its not as bad as it could be. I have come to appreciate him so much more!
He has shown me how supportive and loving he is even from far away. I think that although we are more than 5,000 miles apart, we are closer than ever. I think that going thru this deployment, has been a good thing for the both of us, regardless of how difficult it has come to be at time, especially with my new loss of hearing. Like they say, hard times bring you closer together when you are both willing to work together to jump the obstacles. I miss him dearly, but I know that what he is doing is the right thing. I am so proud of my sailor!
Second, before Auston left for the deployment, I lost all the hearing I had in my right ear. Most of you know, that I was already hard of hearing all my life since birth. I have never had any hearing on my left ear. I had some hearing on my right, it was mild to severe hearing loss. Well, I lost all the hearing I had on my right ear. The doctors dont know what caused it, and although sometimes I wish I knew, it doesnt really matter. What matters is that I stay strong and just find a solution.
Today I had an appointment with a cochlear implant specialist and he advised me that I am a candidate! I am excited but at the same time a bit nervous about the whole process. I was told that its not easy. He said that the easy part is the surgery. The hard part is working and learning to hear again. He said that the hearing I would have with a CI (cochlear implant) is not like normal hearing, instead it is electronic hearing. I guess I dont really understand what that is like until I get it done.
With all this being said, I am looking forward to working hard and doing my best to hear again. There are some things that I miss the most about hearing. I miss hearing my husband's voice. I miss hearing the music that used to mean so much to me. I miss hearing my little sisters talk. I miss so much, and I will work as hard as I can to get it all back!
The audiologist I talked to gave me something to think about. She said, a person with a prosthetic leg can run a marathon, I have seen it, but first they need to learn to stand on it. The same, you will be able to hear great, but you must learn how to do it. You need to give it your all day by day to make it happen.
And you know! That is just what I will do!
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